I'll never let go. You'll always be mine. I love you G.Steer, you stupid, lying, untrustworthy, scheming  annoying, ridiculously amazing boy. I don't care if you're not officially mine now, I don't even want us to be us now, but when the time is right; you're mine for the taking. Be prepared pretty boy.

I'll never let go. You'll always be mine. I love you G.Steer, you stupid, lying, untrustworthy, scheming  annoying, ridiculously amazing boy. I don't care if you're not officially mine now, I don't even want us to be us now, but when the time is right; you're mine for the taking. Be prepared pretty boy.

I'm with Grady again. As in boyfriend/girlfriend. Finally what I wanted, and all I want it out.
He honestly does treat me like shit, puts everything/everyone before me.
I planned to break up with him tonight but couldn't bring myself to do.
I feel like a terrible person, but I'm really not happy.
The only time I've been LOLhappy with him is when he called Mala a dumb bitch, that was a bad kisser. HAHAHAHHAH

"Fuck you. Fuck you for every promise you broke. Fuck you for every tear, for every night i cried myself to sleep. For every smile, I couldn't smile. Fuck you for the thoughts you make me think, fuck you for the times I just want to forget everything. For all the times I had to fake a smile, even if I was dying inside. Fuck you for all the lies you've told me, for all the 'Be right backs', that turned into 'Lets stop talking.' Fuck you for making it so hard to trust again. For reminding me no one will ever make me feel the way I feel with you. Fuck you for finding a way into my heart. For every I love you and I miss you's. Fuck you for all the reminders of you everywhere I go. For all the text's I get, where I wish its you. For all the hurt, pain, tears, anger, frustration, you've caused. Fuck you for leaving when I needed you most. Fuck you for all the depressed days you've caused. For the months I wish I could forget, for the days I wish never happened. For the memories we had, that can't seem to be forgotten. Fuck you. Fuck you for making me love you, then leaving me with a broken heart."

I wanna be happy about this. I really do, but I still feel like he's leaving himself an out.
I guess I can't bitch about that. I think about leaving whatever fucked up relationship we have going on,
every single day. But I have my reasons. I would give anything to go back to the way we were, but I will
ALWAYS think he's going to leave. And that's just unbearable.
But every second I'm with him, I'm the happiest girl alive and he is worth every single second of pain.
Because, I love him.