WESTSAFTERPARTY:)

Rachhhh and Corey :)

DaddyO loved this photo.

I love Em. I love Nay. Nick is okay. Haha

LOVELOVELOVELOVE

Thanks E.S

HAHAHAHA, 8)

Macarena bitchezzzz

yeah,imwasted.

She hates me. LOL

Danny+Alex <3333

WADDDUPPPP

SHOTTTSSS

<33

She's my favourite.

LOL. Hot.

I dont know what we're doing. Maybe dancing.

FkYes.:$

he's annoying, he's hilarious, he's the worlds biggest asshole, he makes me want to scream, he ruins my day and saves it at the last minute, he drives me crazy, he's out of his mind, i hate his guts, and he's everything i want.

I love you but I don't want to.

& When she’s gone… Remember you once loved her, you once needed her, and you once cared about her more than anything in the world. You can’t deny she was ever there, you can’t deny that it ended over absolutely nothing, and you can’t deny that, regardless, you still think about it. No other girl could love you the way she did, correction, the way she does. One day, when you forgot about your “new girl”, you’ll remember the “real girl;” you know, the one that gave you everything, trusted you, the one whose heart you broke. And you’ll come back, and as much as it hurts her to say, she’ll be strong. She’ll look at you and say, “you had your chance, you took your chance for granted, and you ruined your chance of being with me.” Then she will turn and walk away, wishing it wasn’t over, wishing nothing had changed, but knowing that this is for the better, and from that point on, you’ll realize what a beautiful thing you took for granted and what an amazing girl you destroyed."

Someday, you're gonna regret losing me. I promise.

I can't decide whether that was the smartest or dumbest things I have ever done.

Im pretty sure I'd be okay with this whole thing, if that one question would leave my head.

Am I really that easy to let go of?

it's hard to wait around for something you know might never happen;

buts it's even harder to give up when you think it's everything you want. 

 

 i'm overly affectionate and easily attached. there. i said it. i've been pretending for too long that i'm immune to feelings and exempt from falling in love. i can't take it anymore. i'm a lot weaker than i've been making myself seem. i wish you understood that.

“Everyone says love hurts.
When actually love doesn’t hurt.
Love didn’t leave you for some other girl,
it didn’t cheat on you, nor did it break your heart.
So stop blaming love for once and start blaming
the asshole that treated you like crap and gave you up!”

(Whispered) Let me be your hero

Would you dance if I asked you to dance?
Would you run and never look back
Would you cry if you saw me crying
Would you save my soul tonight?

Would you tremble if I touched your lips?
Would you laugh oh please tell me these
Now would you die for the one you love?
Hold me in your arms tonight?

(Chorus)
I can be you hero baby
I can kiss away the pain
I will stand by you forever
You can take my breath away

Would you swear that you'll always be mine?
Would you lie would you run away
Am I in to deep?
Have I lost my mind?
I don't care you're here tonight

Chorus

I just want to hold you (2x)
Am I in too deep?
Have I lost my mind?
Well I don't care you're here tonight

Chorus (2x)

You can take my breath my breath away
I can be your hero

❒ Taken ❒ Single ✔ When we fuckin though?

Im deciding. I can dream my dreams with open eyes, and make them come true. Or I can accept reality, move on, meet new people, love new people and live my life. Grady will always mean something to me, but right now it's my decision whether he will be anything with me. I will decide. I will. Do you know why? Because I love the Stevenson brothers + Pearson. They inspire me.

-    [Nick] says (11:58 PM):
 Then don't tell him that you won't be with him if he's with mala
 and then if he's with mala, don't be with him
 simple as that
 if he wants you, he wont be with mala
-    [Nick] says (11:58 PM):
 if he chooses mala
 don't be with him
 if he really wants you
 then he won't need to be told
_TORI. says (11:59 PM):
 i know
 but im pretty sure he believes that he can get me back easily
 like
 be with her now
 but when she leaves
 suck up to me
 and ill cave
-    [Nick] says (11:59 PM):
 don't cave
_TORI. says (11:59 PM):
 and i dont know if ill be able to say no.
 because when he wants to be,
 he is bloody amazing
 but he is also the biggest dickhead
 i have ever met.
-    [Nick] says (12:00 AM):
 Listen to your head
 at all times
 your heart just screws you over
 it actually does
-    [Nick] says (12:01 AM):
 You have to think logically, not with your emotions
 your emotions will tell you to get back with him, even if your head realises what he's really like.
 but you have to listen to your head
-    [Nick] says (12:02 AM):
 if he doesn't wanna be with you now, and he chooses mala, then you know he's not right for you.
 even if you think so, he was the first person you ever loved, and that's why you don't wanna let go
 I'm only saying all this shit, because this is pretty much the situation I'm in.
 and I'm trying my damn hardest to listen to my head.

_TORI. says (12:03 PM):
i guess next time i feel like i wanna be with him, ill just tell myself to remember how im feeling now.

im sure thatll do the trick just fine. haha

How can he be so wise? Lol. That boy really is becoming my support network. Pearson aswell. They make me happy :) 

give up tori. 

theres no point.

its not worth it anyway.

After a while everyone learns,

that holding a hand is different from falling in love,

that kisses don't always mean something,

that promises can be broken, just as quickly as they are made

that people rarely say what they really mean,

that everyone has their secrets,

that everyone will let you down at some point or another,

and that no matter how much you love someone, sometimes you just gotta let them go.

11:56 pm. Monday, 6th September 2010

You don't want me like that.

You don't want me like anything.

You don't wanna be friends because you 'dont forgive people as easily' as I do.

If I had your standards, I would have very minimal friends, and you certainly would not be one of them. I think you need to remember what you did, and then try to tell me that what I did was wrong. I still want to be friends, but that's not because I've forgiven you; its because I want out of this whole shitty situation. I wanna be able to walk past you and smile and it not be a big deal. I think we can be, as long as you come back to reality and remember what you've done before you judge me.

10:50 pm, Monday, 6th September 2010.

I believe that Grady and I can be friends. Hesitantly. But I do.

I have one straw left.

Some would say it is my last straw.

I hope you don't break this straw,

Because as I said, it is the last one -

There aren't anymore after that.

[c=4]Grady[/c] says (10:31 PM):
 i don't think i can be friends with you if you still talk to nick...

HAHAHAHAHAHAH.

THAT BOY CRACKS ME THE FUCK UP.

I just remembered how much I love life :)

I don't know why. But these photos make me happy. I just found them on Zo's computer.

Treehouse

I want this to be over. I want a decision to be made. I want to know for sure. Carissa is completely, totally and utterly right. And I know I've been a terrible friend to her, but I'll fix it. I will. Just as soon as I pull myself out of this mess, one way or another.
I know what I want.
I know what I should do.
I know what people want me to do.
I think I know what he wants.
I think I know what I am going to do.

Fuck all this being so complicated.
Boys suck.
Except Stuart. I didn't even know he was nice. I always just thought he was a pretty face that wanted me to do him. Who knew a boy like him could say the things he says :) He actually made my night on Friday night, and I barely spoke to him at all. I should really be nicer to the boy.

Rory came and watched my game today. I avoided him afterwards. I don't know why. It just didn't feel like a Rory speaking day.

I am a smart girl that does stupid things. I have amazing friends and family that want nothing but the best for me. And I have an ex-boyfriend that can't decide what he wants.

Figure your shit out Tor. Decide on something, and stick the fuck with it. I forbid you not to.

People don't really need reasons and explanations in order to move on because moving on is easy if you start accepting everything.

I dont know if I regret that or not ... I don't think I do.

But I don't wanna be just the bonus.

My parents are so fricken lame.

They are trying to bribe me into being happy with an iPhone.

It's not really working. I want my old phone back

Fuck you John Curry. Fucking wanker. Fuck.

Cake tomorrow? I think yes. 

Distortion of reality sounds pretty good to me.